Am I a Writer????

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I am a writer.  There I said it.  But Am I a Writer???  There’s the debate. The one going on in the recesses of my brain in recent days.  I’ve never considered myself a writer.  I’m a blogger.  But, does that make me a writer?

I’m embarking on a writer’s retreat this weekend, but I’m not sure I belong.

Others have called me a writer.  At my sweet Uncle’s funeral in December several of my relatives encouraged me when I mentioned writing about my “legendary Uncle” for the 31 day challenge in the coming year.  “You’re the writer in the family” they said.  Even then, it didn’t click.  I’m a writer?

I tell people I blog, or “I’m a blogger”, but NEVER “I’m a WRITER”  That title comes with a certain flair.  A flair that I don’t possess.

But.  I. am. a. writer.

Truth be told, I’ve been a writer for a long time.

I’ve even been published. HA!

In my 6th grade graduation program.

I wrote a poem, and it made the program.  Wanna know the title?


Yep!  Those little beastly creatures that can invade any home with an animal host. And invade with a vengeance.   They had invaded my childhood home and I wrote about it.  (Thinking back, I’m SURE my mother LOVED that!)

Today I have no idea what that poem said.  And I’m not even sure a copy still exists.  Maybe somewhere in a box in my one of my mothers closets…or, maybe not.

When I was young, I collected poetry.  Mostly dribble from the Teen Beat magazine that was so popular back then.

Over the years I have written a few praise choruses that have remained mine alone.

And in my early married years, I submitted articles to a little home published magazine called “Homewords” or “Homewards”  I can’t remember which any longer, or even the name of the sweet lady that published it.

I suppose the magazine is long gone.

Copies of those articles are stored in a box somewhere amid yesteryear’s memories.

I tend to think of writers as those with articles of worth.  Those with books published.

C.S. Lewis

Mark Twain

Dr. Seuss

John Owen

James Dobson

Suzie Eller

Beth Moore

all I would consider writers…authors.

Call me old-fashioned, but does word-smithing on a blog, mainly as a place to pen my thoughts for myself, make me a writer?

Some would say yes, claim it; others, like myself, not so much.

I’ve always said I write for me.  For myself.  I had some folks encouraging me to go more public and I did; but before that, and even now, I’m content if no one reads my blog.  That said, don’t get me wrong.  I do enjoy comments, and likes; but I refuse to let page views and statistics dictate my blog. I’ve been writing well over 10 years…I have a postie note  with the exact date I started blogging scribbled down somewhere around here  but that’s not important to me.

If I wrote in a diary instead of a blog (weblog) would I be a writer?

If my poetry and praise choruses stay to myself does that make me a writer?

If I were to paint a picture, would that make me a painter?

What about singing?  I LOVE to sing.  But does that make me a singer?

Dancer?  I taught ballroom dancing and won trophies in competitions many years ago.  I LOVE to dance!  Does that make me a dancer?

Speaker?  I’ve spoken to groups many times over the years, but am a speaker?

I used to autocross and I’ve driven an open wheel formula car at Road Atlanta.  Does that make me a race car driver?

I think just because I do something, it doesn’t make me something.

So for now, I’ll be content to call myself

not a writer, but one who writes.

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One who writes

 P.S.  After attending the FMF Retreat, I realized that I can have a writing LIFE without having a writing CAREER.  I AM a writer!!!!!!   !***This was a post I wrote before the FMFRetreat, as I started reading through “On Being a Writer”  I’ve tweaked it a little to accommodate the link up; but it is nearly exactly the same as I don’t want to lose how I felt at the time. ***

I’m linking up with the On Being A Writer discussion group over at Kate’s Heading Home.  Wanna join us?  It’s not too late!


No One Deserves Happiness–Some Thoughts on Current Events

This country’s freedom has been whittled away over the last decades and now we’re reaping the repercussions.

The Confederate flag is being attacked and removed, but the American flag can be burned and desecrated in the name of freedom.

Forced healthcare is FREEDOM?

But everyone forgot about that ruling, didn’t they?

Because the Supreme Court ruled their politics instead of our Constitution last week. They “re-defined” marriage, but you see, they really didn’t re-define anything.  God defines marriage in His word.  One man, one woman for life.

But we live in a twisted world, so while this is no surprise, it can still be heartbreaking for us as a country.

I’ve seen comments on FB from people declaring that “everyone deserves happiness” and comments that “they can’t help it, it’s genetics”  Obama flew a rainbow flag over the PEOPLE’S house, when only a small percentage of this country actually wants same-sex marriage.  I’ve seen comments stating that since it doesn’t affect us directly or our economy, etc., this shouldn’t be a big deal.  One commenter even made the statement that it’ll be live and let live at this point…churches won’t be forced to marry those that are same-sex attracted, etc. etc.  What a deceived culture we live in today…

HELLO!  One such “couple” closed down a bakery owned by someone who suggested they use another bakery because the owner had a Biblical conviction against homosexual marriage…I don’t think the same-sex community will just roll over and be happy now…much like the Women libbers of the 70’s have done…staunch “equality” people actually demand MORE than equality!

I’m thinking there may be many posts regarding recent events. i need to get my many thoughts out of my head and this is the way I do it.

Agree? Fine.  Disagree?  Fine.

I’ve always said, my blog MY thoughts.  If you disagree, I expect you to be respectful.  If you don’t like what I say, you’re free to move on and you’re even free to start your OWN blog.  (for now)

Let me say on the forefront.  GOD is on His throne.  This isn’t a surprise to Him and I trust Him and his perfect plan completely. I don’t understand it, but I trust that He knows what he’s doing!  This doesn’t mean I can’t be concerned, or fear the future of this country. God made us with minds to think and reason and that’s what I’m doing here.

Today, I’d like to address the “everyone deserves happiness” argument.

I want people happy too.  But NO ONE deserves happiness or anything else!  We don’t deserve a job, to be taken care of, to eat, to have a nice house,  a nice car, or______________.

We are ALL filled with sin and nothing good, apart from God’s grace, is in us.  I wrote about this quite a while back.  Here and here and way back in 2007 too.

I KNOW it’s pop culture to believe that we are inherently good, and we deserve to be happy, but that is a lie from the pit of Hell and all a part of the humanistic religion.

If you don’t want to go read the posts, here’s the thumbnail:

We are inherently full of sin, like filthy rags, (bloody, yucky rags).  We deserve Hell.  Only because of Christ’s shed blood on the cross in our place, are we worthy of anything. When we are saved, His blood makes us “good” before the Father.

If we are saved, we spend an eternity with our Heavenly Father, If we are not saved, we spend eternity in Hell. God is a truly righteous and just God.  Yeah, I know, not a popular word in this mock utopia society, but no matter what you and I believe the truth is the TRUTH!

God’s truth, is THE truth.

Not believing it won’t change it.

God’s word says “at the name of JESUS, every knee WILL bow, in Heaven and on Earth”  (Philippians 2:10)

Even the Demons tremble because they KNOW, but their knowing is useless without faith (James 2:19-20)

God opens the eyes of some, and others remain blind.  I don’t even come close to pretending I understand His reasoning where salvation is concerned, but I know this is the way it is…

So for those of you that believe everyone deserves happiness, I’m sorry but you’re wrong.  I didn’t say it, God said it.

But let’s put God aside for a minute, shall we?

There was a time when even the world recognized same-sex attraction as a deviant behavior…it has only been removed from the diagnostic manual for mental illness in recent years.

Let’s consider some other acts that are currently thought to be deviant behavior in our culture.

Let’s imagine someone comes before the courts and says

“I like molesting 5-year-old boys, it makes me happy”

Well, EVERYONE deserves happiness, don’t they?

how about a woman who believes she can be happy with a dog?

Well, EVERYONE deserves to be happy, don’t they?

How about a man who says I want many wives, instead of one?

Well, EVERYONE deserves to be happy, don’t they?

How about someone who murders, and rapes others for their pleasure (happiness)

Well, EVERYONE deserves to be happy don’t they?

Naw, I didn’t think you’d agree.  And quite honestly, you’ve probably convinced yourself that it would NEVER come to that…but I say, it’s only a matter of time before someone steps forward with one of these, or another similar argument.  Bottom line is even apart from God’s authority on the matter, it’s a faulty argument.

***Again, let me remind you (if you’re still with me, or have ever been with me).  I’m writing these posts for ME, to get my thoughts clarified.  I’m not writing for anyone else, I never have…my blog my thoughts and for the time being I am allowed to have them.

Five Minute Friday Send

The rules are simple.  Type for 5 minutes without edits on the word Kate offers for the week.  Link up and comment on the previous post.

This weeks word is send.


Send.  What will I send?  Where will I send?  Who will I send?  When will I send?  How will I send?Why will I send?

Send, such a small word but it can pack a punch.  We can send letters, we can send a child to do school.  We can send meals to someone in need.  We can send missionaries to a land over the ocean and far away.  We can send a child to Grandma’s.  We can send an email across some great unknown entity, or a blog into the blogosphere where those we know, and those we don’t know read.  To think. To judge.  To comment or to not comment.  To be forever exposed for the world to see.

Such a small word with so many meanings


God Have Mercy…

By now I’m sure you’ve heard.

Robin Williams is dead.

Mr. Williams was an extremely funny man; but battled depression and addictions throughout his life.

Robin Williams  death is tragic.   He was a young 63 years old.  And there isn’t a reason good enough for anyone to take their own life.  Even when things appear so hopeless. Many years ago, we had a friend that took his own life.  The funeral home overflowed with those that loved and cared for Mike.  His death was tragic because he was so loved and cared for by these people, but apparently he didn’t know how well loved he really was, or maybe he was so deep in the depression that he couldn’t rationalize that he was loved, and help was available.  I’m assuming Mr. Williams was the same.

There are several of his movies I love, Mrs. Doubtfire, Dead Poet’s Society and who can forget,  “GOOOOOOOOOOD MORNING VIEEEEEEEETNAM!!!!!!!!!!!!”   I will never forget Na-Noo, Na-Noo,   This relatively unknown, cute quirky man who played an alien named Mork with bright colored suspenders and strange habits, like sitting on his head and talked to his leaders via an egg sort of transport at the end of every episode.

God truly blessed Mr. Williams with talent equal to very few.

I have seen many condolences expressed all over the internet.  Many well wishers comforting themselves with “RIP, Robin Williams” condolences.

His death is tragic, not only because he felt so alone that he took his own life, but because there is no evidence that he will “RIP”

A while back I wrote about the deaths of Michael Jackson, Ed McMahon and Farrah Faucett.  Each of these people contributed entertainment to our lives; but what did they really leave for eternity?

I ask the same of Robin Williams, what did he REALLY leave for eternity?  According to Wikipedia, he was Episcopalian, but growing up in or claiming a denomination doesn’t make one a believer.  I never heard him talking about any kind of relationship with Christ.  In fact, sometimes he was downright raunchy in his humor and speech.

Maybe I’m wrong.  Maybe he did really have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ.  But there is nothing to show any evidence.  His lifestyle didn’t reflect it.  His movies didn’t reflect it.  His life didn’t reflect it.

Rest in Peace.  How can those that don’t know Jesus “rest IN peace”?  I know Hell is not a popular topic, but whether we like it or not, it does exist.  Many will be surprised to find that being a “good” person isn’t enough.  God is a merciful God.  None of us deserve anything but hell!  But he gives the offer to all to be saved through the blood of Jesus Christ, God’s one and only son begotten to take away the sins of the world.

That is God’s mercy.

I am reminded of the story of the Rich man and Lazarus in Luke 16.  The rich man, lived his life on this earth for himself.  Lazarus, it seems, did not.  Lazarus went to Abraham’s side.  The rich man did not.  I am not speculating to be a great theologian, but this is the only example I can think of in scripture that gives us a glimpse of what may happen on the other side.

There used to be a time when instead of RIP (Rest in peace), people said, “God have mercy on their soul”

God have mercy on their soul.

Much more accurate for those that know the Lord, and for those that don’t.  We ALL need mercy.  Every day.  Every hour.  Every second of life.  Or death.

So instead of Rest in Peace, I ask God to have mercy on Robin William’s soul.

That truly brings me peace.  Not just for Robin Williams but for all that leave this earth with certain or uncertain eternal future.

God is a just God.  The only truly just and righteous being in existence.  He is the only one that can truly offer mercy to any of us.

Do you know Jesus as your personal savior?  If so, I look forward to rejoicing with you for eternity.  If not, it’s not too late.   Being a “good” person.  Being a “funny” person.  Being a “nice’ person isn’t enough.  We have ALL sinned.  We’ve all fallen short.  We all NEED God’s grace and mercy.   If you think you’re a good person, please visit this website:

I recommend you begin reading one of the Gospels.  For now, bypass the geneologies and pick up with the accounts of John the Baptist and Jesus’s coming to earth.  Find a solid Bible teaching church.  If you need help finding one, please contact me.  Shane has studied all sorts of denominations, and non-denominations and we can help you find a solid teacher near you.   Listen to good Christian radio.  has good solid Bible teachers like Chuck Swindoll, R.C. Sproul, Alistar Begg and others.   You can do this in the privacy of your home, or car.  Leave a comment or contact me, if we can encourage you!

God bless you.  And May God have mercy on ALL of our souls!



I’m blog hopping again with proverbs 31 ministries online bible study, Made to Crave

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Crave God more, is my goal for these six weeks.

I don’t expect to drop much weight in 6 weeks. Maybe a few pounds, but nothing substantial.  This is about getting back to a lifestyle I lived for over 10 years of my life.

I’m not into fad diets or cutting out things I love to eat. I’m more about eating food that I truly want  when I’m truly hungry and stopping when I’m satisfied.  I try to eat real food, haven’t had a coke in over a year, (although I will on occasion drink a whole foods coke with cane sugar).  I  avoid the dirty dozen, etc.  This doesn’t mean I won’t eat potato chips or the yummy eclair dessert I LOVE, (except I probably won’t make this for a while, because it makes a LOT and it’s extremely hard for me to resist because it tastes so good!)

I also want to exercise daily and go to God in prayer or read the Word, when I want to eat and I’m not hungry–that’s where the crave God comes in 🙂

So… What is the truth about my journey so far,  in this study?

The truth is that God loves me regardless of how much I weigh. I could weigh 300 pounds, 500 pounds or 110 pounds and God would love me.  The truth is I’m no where near any of those numbers.

The question however is?  Would I be loving him as much as I would if I craved God instead of food?

Last week in Chapter 8, Lysa mentioned Karen’s questions.  One of those questions is my jumping off place for today’s post.

“Before I hopped on the scale (or in my case looked in the mirror) did I think I had a God-honoring successful week?”

The truth isn’t always reflected in the scales, or in the mirror, or in the way my clothes feel.

The truth is reflected in what I did.  In the choices I made.

Did I hit Starbucks drive thru Monday when things were going whonky and I meeeeeeeeeeeded something to make me feel better?


Did I eat to the point of gluttony, and stuff myself any day this week?


Did I mindlessly eat just because that bag of chips was there?


Did I cling to God more and eat less?


The reality (aka, the truth) is that I exercised every day this week. I found refit revolution on youtube. GREAT workouts!

Check out their youtube channel here. 

(They even have a routine to Overcomer, but I haven’t tried it yet).  I’ve been doing about 15 -20 minutes every day since Saturday.  Using a cool down to warm up, two or three videos in the middle, and a cool down at the end.

Here’s one that I’ve been doing.

The truth is that I haven’t munched absentmindedly in the last 3 weeks nearly as much as I had been doing.

The truth is I’m thinking about almost everything that goes in my mouth and asking myself if I’m hungry or just eating to eat.

The truth is I’m eating less at every meal than I was 3 weeks ago.

The truth is I have clung to Christ more often during the difficult times in the last 3 weeks.

Have I lost weight?

I really don’t know. I haven’t been on a scale in years. I don’t want to be ruled by a scale now-although I probably will weigh myself soon just to see where I’m at.  In my younger years I was on the scale daily measuring my “success”.

Have I lost inches? Again, I don’t know. I feel like my clothes are a little looser, but the truth is, I’m not sure.

Do I look thinner when I look in the mirror?  Now here’s the rub.  NO!  In fact, I look a little more poochie around the middle…


The truth is I feel better overall whether or not I lose any weight…EVER!

The truth is, my closer to 50 year old body feels less creaky since I’ve been exercising daily.

The truth is exercise clears my mind, helps me think better.

The truth is it gives my children something to chuckle about…

If my clothes start falling off my body, I’ll be sure to let ya know 🙂

Have a wonderful, Christ centered day!


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Social Media Maddness

Shane and I were talking earlier today about social media and what it does to us.  This isn’t new, in fact, I think I’ve blogged about it before…but who says I can’t again?

Facebook deters real life in person friendships.  There people that are supposed to be my real life in person friends.  But with facebook, we rarely see each other or talk anymore.  If we do, the conversation often goes something like this:

What ya been up to?

Oh “I went skydiving, I went rocky mountain climbing and
I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu.”

Oh, I saw that on Facebook


Twitter takes away any sort of deep thought at all

Everything you ever wanted to know in 140 characters, or less.

Not to mention the public-ness of it all.

When we visited the  National Archives in KC a few years ago, they told us they were capturing all the tweets as part of the archival system.

Really?  So we’ll have such deep thoughts captured such as:

Paris Hilton: “No, no, I didn’t go to England; I went to London.”

Jessica Simpson: “Sometimes learning the language in my head can be just as hard as communicating with someone foreign. alone time on flights get me everytime.”

50 Cent, on the tsunami that was headed to the West Coast on Friday: “Wave will hit 8am them crazy white boys gonna try to go surfing.”

Or yeah, I really need to be included in Rosanne Barr and Tom Arnold’s Twitter argument,

Wow!  I can feel the brain cells oozing out of my head as I’m typing this.

Do we REALLY need to read the dirty laundry?

Does it REALLY need to be captured for all of history?

Apparently, I’m one of the few holdouts in the world of twitting…

According to Wikipedia “As of September 2013, the company’s data showed that 200 million users send over 400 million tweets daily, with nearly 60% of tweets sent from mobile devices”

Pinterest takes away hobbies

Apparently you can post  your favorite recipes, pictures of your favorite hobbies, etc. to a make believe board, but I want to know,

do you actually ever make any of them in the real world?

It’s all seems so fake.

In my defense, I guess I could be wrong:

I’m not on twitter

I’m not on pinterest

I am on FB, although there are days I wish I wasn’t.

Hannah deleted her FB account a couple of months ago.

Shane hasn’t been on FB since he left Bott.

IF it weren’t for a very limited number of friendships

distant family members,

Tabitha’s foster family,

Online Bible Study FB parties,

I’d be done with FB.

Give me “old-fashioned” email or blogging

blogging builds relationships;  I have plenty of FB friends from my blogging days at homeschoolblogger to prove it

Or let’s get REALLY old fashioned and actually pick up the telephone or mail a letter to someone we love

What a novel idea.

Wonder if it’ll ever catch on?

btw, If you find yourself off my friends list in the future, drop me an email or better yet pick up the phone and give me a ring.

I’d much rather have a real relationship with you 🙂

Journey to Wellness- Standard Process

So  Dr. David has been a tremendous help on my journey, but unfortunately, he does not use or recommend Standard Process products.  😦  I have found them to be crucial in my journey and have several friends that benefit from them.  From the research I have done, they are a fabulous, whole food product line and I wish he would use them 🙂

Dr. Martin started me on a couple of Standard Process products about 4 years ago.

Simplex F (balances women’s hormones) and Black Currant Oil and then the Iodomere for a short time.

So Standard Process is part of why I’ve added the latest health care professional to my journey.   Here’s the story:

David had recommended a couple of hormone balancing supplements.  Vitex (or Chaste Tree), and when that didn’t work,  a Maca product called  Femmenessence.  Well, for some reason, those things started wacking me out again!

NO way I was doing that to my family again!

Near the end of  April I started wondering if I needed to increase the Simplex F.  I did some research online and found many women taking more than 3 a day.

I also started researching adrenal fatigue, and found that I had almost every symptom.  Which is not a surprise.  I had been putting my body through hell.

My friend was taking a SP (Standard Process) product called Drenamin, recommended by her chiropractor, for adrenal fatigue.  I ordered some from Amazon and figured if I didn’t notice a difference I would pass it on to my friend.  And if I did.  I’d go see my friends chiropractor.

I found a youtube video on self muscle testing (I definitely don’t think this is the BEST way but it worked for me in a pinch and amazingly, it ended up being close to what I actually needed).  I increased my Simplex F by several tablets a day, and about a week later, I started taking several tablets of the Drenamin a day.

Between those two things I noticed another BIG jump in the way I felt!

I started this regimen right before we left to visit Knoxville in April. When I got back, I made an appointment with Dr. Deems.  My friend had told me about her about 5 months ago.  She uses Standard Process AND does muscle testing.

I am still seeing David too, and I think the two make an excellent pairing!

Today, I continue to take a mini-meal with breakfast.  And about 8 pills at dinner (a micro-mini meal).  These supplements are  a mix of what David and Dr. Deems has recommended and apparently they are working for me because…

I’ve taken another big jump on my journey to wellness!

And in fact, Dr. Deems has decreased my Simplex F and Drenamin over the last couple of months.  I’m weaning off some of these supplements.  Some of the supplements I’ll probably continue to take for the rest of my life.

Next week, I’ll talk about some standard supplements that EVERYONE should be taking (such as vitamin d) give you some places to research about them, so you can determine for yourself if you’d like to add them to your routine.  I’ll also describe more of my journey with oil-pulling and dry brushing.   I’ll also provide some links where you can purchase quality products if you’d like to do so.

Once again, I’m not a medical professional, nor do I offer medical advice.  I am only recounting my personal journey.  Dr. David is available for consultation and so is Dr. Kelly Deems, she is a precious, knowledgeable Christian woman and takes appointments on M-W-F.  She is low tech and has no website at the present time.  Below is her contact information.

Dr. Kelly Deems 816-229-6700, 1970 North West Copper Oaks Circle, Blue Springs,MO 64015.

If you contact either of these health professionals, please tell them I recommended them.

 Have a wonderful blessed day!