I Try

This is my 2nd FMF post today, once I got the first one posted, this one hit me like a ton of bricks.

I TRY to post soft, sweet stories that draw a reader in to my world. Into my head.  Swirling sweet words into stories that my readers want to hear, but I get sidetracked on the topic of the day.  One the wrongs that appear right, or the rights that are wronged.

I seem to just spill words out on the screen without thought to how they might sound.

I so long to draw readers into my world, the way I see so many other writers do.

But I just can’t seem to get that sweet honeycomb to spill out over the edges of my words.

Strange because I’m a very emotional person.  My highs are high and my lows are low, I’m told I’m bright, bubbly, vibrant, but yet on the page my words are plain and without description.

And it pains me because I LOVE to write, I love to sit down and put pen to paper has always been the way my mind thinks,  even back to elementary school days.  I wrote poetry, Nothing profound, just words spilling out of my head.  Sometimes I still do.

Maybe it’s an escape,

My home is chaotic, but it’s a peaceful chaos where we love in spite of those days that we’re unlovable.  Forgive when we’ve wronged, we offer encouraging words when trying days come and we LIVE.

These words, fashioned by my friend at Fruitful Vine Creations hang over our sofa as a reminder of what we try to be to each other in our family…

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I’m linking with Kate over at FMF today.  Want to know more…click here.


He Doesn’t Have to Try

Once upon a time in a land far away, people were actually responsible for how they lived, instead of others being responsible for how they live.

children were free to ride bikes, sans helmets, and no one got angry when they ended up in the ER.

People were smart enough to figure out that a cup of coffee is SUPPOSED to be hot, and if you do something stupid with it, you WILL get burned.

There were only restraining orders if there was a reason to have them, today, you tell the powers that be, “I FEEL” threatened and BAM!  A restraining order is issued, whether or not you REALLY are threatened or not.

We could buy the light bulbs and toilets for our home that we WANTED, instead of what is mandated by those in authority.

It seems like the farther we get away from God’s law the closer we get to legislating morality.

Does that concern anyone else?

When we legislate morality, we become legalistic.

A list of does and don’t’s  (and I don’t want to even THINK about where that might lead)

Yes, we need laws, we need some rules, but when we start legislating things that were not meant to be legislated, trouble will follow.

Yet everyone cries FREEDOM!  We want FREEDOM!  But there is no freedom…

we can’t even have any negative thoughts in our own minds about anything or anyone…

the confederate flag offends,

RebelFlagyet the planned parenthood flag flies free

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sad, yes, really sad…no not the flag (although yes, the flag too)

the freedom these people are looking for, is right there for the taking.

Jesus Christ offers so much more than these wanderers could even imagine in their wildest dreams finding

and yet they continue to search…

they continue to place restrictions on others in the name of freedom for themselves.

a bakery refuses service because of conviction and they’re labeled as bigots and they’re forced to close shop.

but those that screamed bigot, want tolerance for their “convictions”.

we’re all supposed to be happy and rejoice because those with same-sex attraction can now “marry”

How can I sit still and watch while people, sad, sad people are seeking the answer.  Yet they reject THE answer, sometimes in hostility and HATE. Yes, the same ones that cry tolerance, cry HATE when they’re told there’s another way.

Because they want to live their own life.

How can


Yes, truth be told, I DO understand!  God blinds the eyes of some and enables others to see clearly.  Why?  That I don’t understand, and I don’t even try.  Here’s what I do KNOW, God is BIG and I am small…I trust Him because He doesn’t have to try, he KNOWS!

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I’m linking up with Kate today over at Five Minute Friday.  The rules are simple 5 minutes of free writes, no edits (Yeah, RIGHT, lol)  on a word she gives us each Thursday evening.  Want more info?  Click here.

Ten in 5

I’m a proverbs 31 Online Bible Study volunteer.  I’ve been leading a small group of 20 women through Suzie Eller’s, The Mended Heart during the last several weeks.  It’s been an excellent study, but has been quite heavy too, so today, I decided we needed some FUN!  I’m posting encouraging posts and ice breaker questions today.  I thought it might be fun to do for Five Minute Friday, so I picked out 10 questions to answer:

1. What was the best compliment you received?  That Shane and I (God) have raised our children well.

2.  Where did you live between the ages of 9 and 12? 6425 Trousdale Rd, Knoxville TN  588-9367  well, I THINK, lol.

3.  When did God become real to you? I was sitting in front of a draft beer at Applebee’s 25 years ago.  Couldn’t resist the call.  That beer sat on the table the entire night.  No beer EVER sat on a table in front of me before that evening.

4.  What kind of car do you drive? Or WISH you drove? My dream car is a 1960’s era Austin Healey Bugeye Sprite

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I want to decorate it will big eyelashes on the headlights and paint the lips bright red.

5. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? A CRUISE, but  I am looking forward to Hawaii in the future

6.  What is your favorite flower?  hands down, daffodil

7.   All-time favorite movie? wow!  This one’s hard too. Oldies?  White Christmas, anytime, anywhere.  But I love Richard Gere movies, and Julia Roberts, Runaway Bride is a fun one.

TIME, but I’m not done 🙂

8. Do you prefer to dance alone or with someone else?  I LOVE to dance with my kiddos.  And although the older 3 are too old, I have a feeling Tabitha will ALWAYS dance with me

9.   When you were a kid, what did you want to grow up to be?  A wife and mom.  Got my dream job

10.  What is your favorite song?  Right now, I cannot get enough of Mercy Me’s newest

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I’m linking up with Kate over at Five Minute Friday where writers gather to write for 5 minutes on the word Kate gives us each week.

Freedom isn’t Free

I’m sure you’ve heard the saying.  Usually this refers to our military and the freedoms we have in this country because of the lives that were lost in battle.

But that’s not where I’m going today.

Freedom isn’t Free

There is a price


Jesus paid the price for the one who believes in Him.  His blood was the ransom.  His life was the price.

Some would say that living as we feel, doing what we feel like doing, being what we feel like being is being free. That we can live as we please, but that’s not free.  That’s bondage to self, to the man’s desires, not to God’s desires.

God desires that we be holy.  That we glorify god and enjoy Him forever.

This means that as we live to please God, we will be FREE!

He gives us the ways we can glorify him in His word, here are some of them:

We are to avoid evil.

We are to avoid immorality and sexual sin.

We are to avoid anger and rage.

We are to tell the truth.

We are to pursue righteousness

The entirety of the law is this:

And you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart

and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.

’The second is this: ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’

There is no other commandment greater than these.”

Oftentimes, God’s definition of freedom looks different than our definition.

We want easy.

We tell people, “What ever makes you happy.”  We think something will make us happy, but we get to the other side and find that we are just as miserable there, or maybe more so, than we were.  The grass isn’t always greener on the other side of the fence.  In fact most often it’s the same old dry grass, just a different location.

Loving our neighbor as ourselves isn’t always easy.  Sometimes it’s tough.  Sometimes loving someone means telling them something they don’t want to hear. It means telling them that they can’t continue living a sinful lifestyle and claim Christ.

Freedom isn’t Free.

Christ, who deserved none of the consequences of our sin, took our sin to the Cross.  In our place.

So where does true freedom come from?

It comes from glorifying God.  When we glorify the Lord, we will desire to avoid sin.  We will desire to live holy and righteous lives.  This doesn’t mean we WON’T sin, this means that it will be our DESIRE.

When we live to glorify the Lord and to avoid sin, we are truly free

If the Son sets you free, then you will be FREE INDEED!  (John 8:36)

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I’m linking up with Kate over at Five Minute Friday.  5 minutes (more or less, haha) of free writing, no edits on a one word prompt that she gives us each week.  Wanna know more?

Where is Hope?

This has been a hard week.  I’ve been burdened deep down in my soul.  There is much pain and suffering in the world.  Things that shouldn’t happen to children, do happen.  Innocence is no more.  Secrets and pain are pushed way down in the soul.  Masks are worn and happy faces and fake joy take the place of the pain.  Marriages fail from infidelity, or alcohol, or just because one or another decides they don’t want to be there anymore.  Children, young adults, older adults and the elderly attempt to take away the pain by popping pills or other means of stopping their breath; some succeed.

I’m weary today with the burden of others.  I’m working my way through The Mended Heart by Suzie Eller with Proverbs 31 Online Bible Study.  And I’m leading a small group of 20 ladies through it. This weeks chapters were about sexual sins, adultery, molestation and the like.  How devastating!    I’m reading the blog and it is heartbreaking. Stories of pain and brokenness have been shared.  And I know it’s only a glimpse of those with deep soul wrenching suffering beneath their masks.

And stories of HOPE!  Like Melissa’s.

There is HOPE!  God SEES!  God HEARS the pain! God HEALS!!  God is VICTORIOUS!!!  For the believer, we are assured that our pain is for a purpose.  Nothing happens by chance.  Everything is for our good (Yes, even that) and His glory.  He uses the circumstances of our lives to mold us into who HE wants us to be, so others can see the beauty he can make from the ashes.

He takes the dead and brings it to life!

He takes the dross away and brings the gold forth!

He makes beautiful out of a lump of clay!

He IS HOPE!  He REDEEMS!  And makes something beautiful from it!

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No One Deserves Happiness–Some Thoughts on Current Events

This country’s freedom has been whittled away over the last decades and now we’re reaping the repercussions.

The Confederate flag is being attacked and removed, but the American flag can be burned and desecrated in the name of freedom.

Forced healthcare is FREEDOM?

But everyone forgot about that ruling, didn’t they?

Because the Supreme Court ruled their politics instead of our Constitution last week. They “re-defined” marriage, but you see, they really didn’t re-define anything.  God defines marriage in His word.  One man, one woman for life.

But we live in a twisted world, so while this is no surprise, it can still be heartbreaking for us as a country.

I’ve seen comments on FB from people declaring that “everyone deserves happiness” and comments that “they can’t help it, it’s genetics”  Obama flew a rainbow flag over the PEOPLE’S house, when only a small percentage of this country actually wants same-sex marriage.  I’ve seen comments stating that since it doesn’t affect us directly or our economy, etc., this shouldn’t be a big deal.  One commenter even made the statement that it’ll be live and let live at this point…churches won’t be forced to marry those that are same-sex attracted, etc. etc.  What a deceived culture we live in today…

HELLO!  One such “couple” closed down a bakery owned by someone who suggested they use another bakery because the owner had a Biblical conviction against homosexual marriage…I don’t think the same-sex community will just roll over and be happy now…much like the Women libbers of the 70’s have done…staunch “equality” people actually demand MORE than equality!

I’m thinking there may be many posts regarding recent events. i need to get my many thoughts out of my head and this is the way I do it.

Agree? Fine.  Disagree?  Fine.

I’ve always said, my blog MY thoughts.  If you disagree, I expect you to be respectful.  If you don’t like what I say, you’re free to move on and you’re even free to start your OWN blog.  (for now)

Let me say on the forefront.  GOD is on His throne.  This isn’t a surprise to Him and I trust Him and his perfect plan completely. I don’t understand it, but I trust that He knows what he’s doing!  This doesn’t mean I can’t be concerned, or fear the future of this country. God made us with minds to think and reason and that’s what I’m doing here.

Today, I’d like to address the “everyone deserves happiness” argument.

I want people happy too.  But NO ONE deserves happiness or anything else!  We don’t deserve a job, to be taken care of, to eat, to have a nice house,  a nice car, or______________.

We are ALL filled with sin and nothing good, apart from God’s grace, is in us.  I wrote about this quite a while back.  Here and here and way back in 2007 too.

I KNOW it’s pop culture to believe that we are inherently good, and we deserve to be happy, but that is a lie from the pit of Hell and all a part of the humanistic religion.

If you don’t want to go read the posts, here’s the thumbnail:

We are inherently full of sin, like filthy rags, (bloody, yucky rags).  We deserve Hell.  Only because of Christ’s shed blood on the cross in our place, are we worthy of anything. When we are saved, His blood makes us “good” before the Father.

If we are saved, we spend an eternity with our Heavenly Father, If we are not saved, we spend eternity in Hell. God is a truly righteous and just God.  Yeah, I know, not a popular word in this mock utopia society, but no matter what you and I believe the truth is the TRUTH!

God’s truth, is THE truth.

Not believing it won’t change it.

God’s word says “at the name of JESUS, every knee WILL bow, in Heaven and on Earth”  (Philippians 2:10)

Even the Demons tremble because they KNOW, but their knowing is useless without faith (James 2:19-20)

God opens the eyes of some, and others remain blind.  I don’t even come close to pretending I understand His reasoning where salvation is concerned, but I know this is the way it is…

So for those of you that believe everyone deserves happiness, I’m sorry but you’re wrong.  I didn’t say it, God said it.

But let’s put God aside for a minute, shall we?

There was a time when even the world recognized same-sex attraction as a deviant behavior…it has only been removed from the diagnostic manual for mental illness in recent years.

Let’s consider some other acts that are currently thought to be deviant behavior in our culture.

Let’s imagine someone comes before the courts and says

“I like molesting 5-year-old boys, it makes me happy”

Well, EVERYONE deserves happiness, don’t they?

how about a woman who believes she can be happy with a dog?

Well, EVERYONE deserves to be happy, don’t they?

How about a man who says I want many wives, instead of one?

Well, EVERYONE deserves to be happy, don’t they?

How about someone who murders, and rapes others for their pleasure (happiness)

Well, EVERYONE deserves to be happy don’t they?

Naw, I didn’t think you’d agree.  And quite honestly, you’ve probably convinced yourself that it would NEVER come to that…but I say, it’s only a matter of time before someone steps forward with one of these, or another similar argument.  Bottom line is even apart from God’s authority on the matter, it’s a faulty argument.

***Again, let me remind you (if you’re still with me, or have ever been with me).  I’m writing these posts for ME, to get my thoughts clarified.  I’m not writing for anyone else, I never have…my blog my thoughts and for the time being I am allowed to have them.

God’s Grace among Shattered Dreams

I KNOW I have written before about the dreams I had for myself, and our family in our early years.  And boy did we ever.

But none of those dreams cam to fruition the way we planned.

We have 4 beautiful children that came by adoption long before we thought adoption was part of our plan.

And we had dreams for how our family would be…

the “perfect’ little family with a little house and a white picket fence where everything was always rainbows and roses and the children always wore cute little outfits and said “Yes M’aam” and “Yes, Sir” never argued or talked back and ALWAYS obeyed…


Little me tell you, life came along and messed up THAT plan!

We wanted to shelter our children from the ugly of the world and raise them to know the Lord.  We were careful about what we let into our home…the t.v. shows, movies, people etc.

We wanted to raise them in a way that I wasn’t raised.

And we have.  Hannah is sweet 19 and never been kissed.  Buy the time I was her age…well, we just won’t go there today, but suffice it to say that I had lost my innocence many years before.   Our children do know the Lord and they Love the Lord, but while I was sick, things came into our home that I didn’t want there,  movie stars and music that I didn’t want my children listening to because “good” Christian families listen to christian music and hymns

and not THAT kind of music

STOP  (but I can’t cause there’s more to this story I need to put here.)

“good” Christian families have standards and expectations.

The children will obey immediately, the first time, no exceptions.

Well you know what?  In the real world that just doesn’t happen.

At least it didn’t in our home.

You want to know what the “bad” music and movie stars were?

Music from musicals mostly.

Phantom of the Opera (not my favorite, but not what it could have been!)

Momma Mia

Amy Adams

and similar…

no heavy metal, no nasty rap, nothing terribly ugly…

So now, as my oldest recently turned 19 and my 3 youngers (15 to 9) show incredible insight to things of God,  They are respectful, responsible and fun to be around (most of the time).  They are thinkers and dreamers and just plain ole GREAT kids!

And I am content.

And I am thankful that God worked in our home the way He wanted, instead of the way we wanted.

I let go of the dream I held and I am content with the dreams that weren’t.

I am SO proud of the young men and ladies that they are becoming…

moving away from legalism and toward grace in the Almighty.

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